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What Retirement Means To Me: Alpahbetically

This was what I wrote on 4 September 2009 after my retirement. I'd love to review this once I can spare some time.

Absolved of Office Responsibilities

Beating the traffic jam

Calming effect on my brain and body

Done with mundane routines

Elevated status - FTH (Full time housewife) as opposed to FTE (Full time employee)

Free from the shackles of impossible bosses and employers

Growing richer emotionally and spiritually

Husband appreciates me more

Irresistably happy

Jumping for joy

Kaleidoscopic view of life

Langushing happily at home

Motherly touch for my four precious kids

No more stress, no more depression

Outrageously upbeat about life

Pampering my family to the hilt

Que sera sera, whatever will be will be

Reeling in comfort and security

Simply fantastic

Thank you Allah for granting my wishes to retire before I turn 50

Utterly blissful new life

Valuable treasures to cherish and love at home

Would I want it any differently?  Absolutely Not!

Xtra attention now showered on the family and more time for myself

Yesterday was history - the future will shine brightly

Zealousness is the order of the day, in fact, that's my daily mantra

Crying is okay here

WanKinsella@Lubukhatiku

My silent tears

I wish I can move like you, but I can't

I wish I can jump like you, but I can't
I wish I can laugh like you, but I can't

I wish I can sit upright like you, but I can't

I wish I can walk like you, but I can't

I wish I can run across the fields like you, but I can't

I wish I can climb hills or trees like you but I can't

Have you ever wondered why I can't put on my own clothes?

Why I can't comb my own hair?

Why I can't take my own bath?

Have you ever felt like how I feel?
You can sleep but I can't

As my eyes are perpetually open

You can breathe but I can't

As there's a tube down my throat

You can eat but I can't
As everything is tasteless

You can play but I can't

As I'm strapped 24/7 to a wheelchair

I wish I can cry

But there's no tears to shed

I wish I can put my hands around you, but I can't
I wish I can carress your cheek but I can't
I wish I can kiss away my mummy's tears but I can't
I wish I can take away the pain from my daddy's heart, but I can't

Please look at me
Please look at my silent tears

Please listen to my voiceless plea

Please embrace and hug me

All I want is to be loved...

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WanKinsella@Lubukhatiku